I need to change

I want to share with you a thought that strike my mind suddenly. How much is it necessary to speak out. Since childhood I have my own principles or you can say some strata of rules and it is difficult for me to come out of these so easily. I believe in telling the truth and I do that. My friends say “you should not say the truth always. We are not telling you to lie but you can hide few things”. My response always comes as “why should I?” Likewise I am not a silent girl but I talk less. That is my nature. Many times I feel this is a negative point in me. In today’s world in order to make your presence felt, you need to speak up and you need to speak aloud. So that people around you feel that you are present. You have knowledge but that is not enough, you need to speak about your knowledge in every step of your life, you work and that is not enough again, you need to noisily work so that everyone can hear the noise of your work. I do not speak but that never suggest my mind is blank and I have no idea of my surroundings. But the main thing is today’s world works in a different way. I will repeat my sentence: “you need to speak and you need to speak aloud”. The world is changing fast and with every single change you have to change yourself. I am a very static person. Sometimes I feel it hard to adjust myself with this fast changing world. I feel as if my principles are too outdated and it don’t stand anywhere in today’s world. Gone are days when a person will silently work throughout his or her life and the person’s work is valued, if not during lifespan, surely after death. But now the scene is different, people die without being recognized. I am afraid I might be one. I like to speak less and learn more which do not work in present time. Both things have to move simultaneously. I am not complaining, I am realizing that there are lot of things I need to work on and may be many out there like me need to do this. We need to make others feel we are present. I don’t know how much this will be possible but I have to try…in order to exist and I will try.